Wednesday, May 21, 2008

a revelation (degenerating into despair)

i am no good at writing. i think about it. i ponder it. but it doesn't happen gracefully anymore. there might be bathtub moments of introspective reverie in which words flow from my mind with a mellifluousness (see, i wanted to say mellifluity) that no longer occurs when the whale is beached.
nowhere is this more evident than in academic papers requiring that i expound on textbook knowledge with my own thoughts, opinions, and understanding of civilization. left to my own devices, rarely do i opine on ANYTHING!
i think, but my thoughts are globs of dough that i seldom stick in the oven. when was the last time i buttered the biscuit of mature mental reverie?
my thoughts are those of a child and i wish do the desires of a child. (john 8:44)
my posture is deplorable. there is a nagging itch on the back of my scalp that causes constant fiddling and scratching around. i feel like the kid the obligatory "lice letter" referred to anonymously:
dear parent,
please be advised that some piece of white trash filth has infiltrated our school and exposed us all to disgusting head bugs. clearly his or her family hasn't bathed in weeks and lives in a shit hole. thanks a lot, asshole.

principal ------

ughh. there is nothing worse than being untalented AND itchy. it's positively humiliating.

boo hoo
amber

6 Comments:

Blogger Jeanne said...

Sometimes a diet devoid of buttered biscuits encourages appreciation of the more immediate fruits of life. Untangling is good. And timely, it seems. May we find the seeds of our words, and resow.

4:31 PM  
Blogger Jeanne said...

If there is such a thing as reincarnation, I'm coming back as a fortune cookie.

8:04 AM  
Blogger la fille du fromage said...

Jeanne! Hurrah!
How is Sweden and how is the Swede?
Cryptic, it seems. Pleasantly so, though. So though.

4:43 PM  
Blogger Jeanne said...

Busy as a bee. Planting everything in the midst of a drought. Writing nary a word.

4:25 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Writing is impossible if you are not interested in the subject or are occupied with other things. At least for me.

4:34 PM  
Blogger Óscar Varona said...

You're writing well, at least the text I read. So, Keep writing, and don't think bullshits. Cheers

2:20 PM  

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